Patience, Gotta Have Patience

Patience is something that I have struggled with for years. I am a very methodical person. So I usually expect things to occur in a particular order. Over time I’ve slowly learned to deal with the fact that there are variables that even my best laid plans cannot account for. Most of those variables involve the actions of other individuals. I’m a woman who takes her time and thinks things through before coming to a firm decision. And I accept the fact that fickle people are my kryptonite.  :-/ There’s no other way to put it. Indecision irks me. I don’t react to it as badly as I used to but that has come with time and what? Patience.  🙂

I’m learning how to be more patient with myself, too. I don’t believe that emotions should be compartmentalized but I don’t think they should always be at the forefront of our minds. Allowing emotions to control all of our actions can become chaotic. Right now I have inner turmoil that can make me less patient with people than I would be normally. I have to learn how to distinguish when something else is affecting my mood or reaction.

I know that I’m not ready to take certain steps in my life at the moment either. I thought I was ready but I’m not. My epiphany is rather vague, I know. Suffice to say that I want to take more time out to tend to my feelings before anyone else’s. As much as I hate to admit it, I need to pay more attention to my emotions. I still want to avoid hurting other people’s feelings, but I won’t tap-dance around a situation and inevitably hurt myself to do it. It’s been a rough year and, I need to take some ‘me time.’ I’ll give myself a chance to heal. Then I’ll revisit the friendships and relationships I had to distance myself from. Things may change and they may not. The point is to address my well-being first.

Forgiveness

In the past I have usually been able to forgive and forget. For about six months or so the ‘forgetting’ part has been very difficult. But I’ve learned that I should only use the things that once hurt me as reminders of what I will not allow in my life. I don’t want to hang things over the people who hurt me. I don’t want to constantly remind them about what they did to me. But I can’t let the same abusive cycle continue either.

I sincerely want to get the most out of my encounters with the people around me. And I’ve realized that people will come in and out of my life. They will enter my life in ‘seasons.’ I’ve heard the term before but I’ve truly begun to understand what it means.

Some people aren’t meant to be as close as we would like them to be. And they may not be meant to stay in our lives indefinitely. That has been something that I’ve wrestled with. I don’t like to ‘write people off.’ But I’ve been burned… a lot.

I’m coming to the conclusion that it’s me or them. And I obviously choose me. In the end, I will answer for myself. So while I honestly enjoy helping others, I have to help myself, too… More so than I have been.

I forgive because… bitterness should not be apart of my life. It festers and it warps the mind. I don’t want to carry that kind of burden around with me for the rest of my life. I will not let anger block the blessings God has for me.

Yes, it’s a hard lesson and it stings…. Learn from it, get up, and keep moving!

Tips and Resources for Aspiring Writers

Recently, I’ve been asked questions about resources for writers. I won’t endorse any of the resources I provide because I am not personally linked to any of them. However, I have found useful information from these resources. Please, feel free to explore them in your leisure. I hope they are of some use to you.

Resources

Books:

Grammar Girl’s Quick and Dirty Tips for Better Writing, By: Mignon Fogarty

For the Write Reason: 31 Writers, Agents, and Editors Share Their Experiences with Christian Publishing, By: Marybeth Whalen

The American Directory of Writer’s Guidelines: More than 1,700 Magazine Editors and Book Publishers Explain What They are Looking for from Freelancers, By: Stephen Blake Metee

The Christian Writer’s Market Guide, By: Sally Stuart

Publishers:

(Note: The following are Christian publishers and editing services. They work mainly with novice authors).

PartnerPublishers (http://www.partnerpublishers.com/)

ChristianManuscriptSubmissions (http://www.christianmanuscriptsubmissions.com/)

Honestediting (http://www.honestediting.com/)

The Writer’s Edge Service (http://www.writersedgeservice.com/)

Websites:

(Note: These websites can be used for informational purposes, for networking, or for advertising).

http://www.writersdigest.com/

http://www.loc.gov/literacy/

http://www.ala.org

http://www.librarything.com/

http://bookforum.com/

http://www.authornation.com/

http://www.pw.org/about-us

http://www.helium.com/

http://www.associatedcontent.com/

http://www.facebook.com/

http://www.logoriaseries.com/

http://www.goodreads.com/

http://storms.typepad.com/booklust/

http://www.anotherealm.com/prededitors/pealk.htm

http://www.authorsden.com/

Pass it along

I started a few blog entries last month and saved them as drafts. I had an idea of what to write but… that was it… O_o I must admit that during that time I didn’t have much inspiration. I was distracted by various things. Meeting new people, finishing the summer semester, tying up loose ends… and those are excuses to an extent. So I’m gonna get down to business.

It is my belief that when we are given the opportunity to do something great we should thank God by helping someone else accomplish their goal. Loving our neighbor, Giving back to society, Serving our community… it can manifest itself in many ways. The fact of the matter is that when God blesses you, you pass on the blessing. Show God your gratitude by letting His love shine through you.

Too often people are blessed and forget the struggles they went through before obtaining their blessing. Let’s always remember the test. The ‘battle scars’ should be reminders of what God has brought us through. Gain strength from it but don’t let it harden your heart. Keep the balance!

I want to remember the simple things that bring me joy. I love comfort. And honestly, it’s all I ask for… I’m not one for too much extravagence. Yes, I do have guilty pleasures, so to speak (i.e. high-tech gadgets). But I’m frequently content with a mid-day nap on my day off. And I don’t want to lose that aspect of my personality even in the light of success.

And… I’m back!

So the summer semester came to a close. I made out with A’s in both of my classes (HOORAY!)

Fall semester started this week. It is also my last semester in my Master’s program. I will be graduating December 12, 2009. I already completed my graduation check out. Now all I need to do is pass my classes and I’m good to go. : )

I know it’s been exactly a month since my last post. But it was a much needed hiatus. I was able to catch up with school work and put some things in order. I must admit that there were a few distractions during that period of time. Some were good and some not so good. But at this point I feel that any and all distractions WILL be eliminated. I refuse to waste anymore of my time on stumbling blocks.

With that said, I am tackling this final semester with gusto! ^^

The writing process is moving along at a steady pace. I sometimes find it difficult to stay in tune to what I’m working on but I’m learning how to find inspiration and get something done (even if it’s just a few paragraphs).

I’ve been meeting other aspiring writers and it’s very encouraging to see people trying to make their dreams come true. I am thankful to them for supporting and cheering me on. The feedback is always appreciated. Negative or positive, I take feedback and use it to improve my work.

I’ve been doing a lot of freelance editing and that’s helping my writing as well. It can be tedious at times but I’m learning to edit on a deadline. What I’m trying to say is that I’m becoming more disciplined, lol.

I have a lot of posts planned so I will probably flood my blog with updates in the days to come. ‘Course that’s always a good thing. ; )

Summer semester is coming to a close

 

Two more weeks left of summer school! Finally! Summer school started May 12th. I am so unbelievably happy it will be over soon. I tell you I had some of the most nerve-wracking experiences this semester.

Ok… so I’m taking 6 credit hours (2 classes). We have group work in each class. I have had some interesting experiences with group work, good and bad. But one of my groups was just…wow… I’m glad we turned in our final project today. Things went smoothly actually. I am truly grateful for that, ’cause it was bout to be on! Things got sorta heated between me and one of my group members. It got to the point that he resorted to name-calling. Yeah… you all can just imagine my reaction to that, lol. But it’s over so I’m good. I don’t have time for petty arguments.

At the moment, I’m working on my final papers. I have one for each class. The minimum requirement is 1,000 words for both papers. As an English major, I laugh at 1,000 words! Ha! : ) I shall be done by tomorrow evening and that’s only because I want to make sure I put my best effort into it. After that I won’t have any more assignments for the next two weeks. No final exams, just papers. *sigh* I am content. ^^

Another reason to rejoice is… I’ll be able to graduate in December like I originally planned! : ) Remember, when I said I’d have to take longer than I wanted to finish my Masters? Well, come to find out one of the classes I thought I needed to retake will count towards my credits. Sooo, instead of 12 hours in the fall, I only need to take 9 hours. When I thought I needed 12 hours I planned to break them up (6 in the fall and 6 in the spring). I’ve done 12 hours before. I actually did 12 hours my first semester in grad. school and got out with all A’s (and I thank God for it). I wanted to continue working on my writing career and trying to expand my business so I didn’t want to overload myself. I feel my dedication to my calling is why God blessed me with what I desired. I wanted to finish in the fall so I could stay on schedule. Contrary to popular belief, I do want to be finished with school one day. :-/

I’m looking into getting a condo soon as well. I have an appointment with a realtor next week. I’m praying all goes well and I can be in my new place by the time fall semester begins.

If I can get more work done on my manuscripts, I’d be in really good shape. But editing is a beast! : “(   I’ll be finished by August… I hope… -_-;;;

Projects! (status report #1)

Yes, I am alive. LOL! I actually started working on a short story recently. I got caught up. But now I’m back to blogging. : )

So… I’ve been working out how I’m going to get my first book published. None of my novel manuscripts are complete… unfortunately. However, I do have a good number of poems and other creative works that just need to undergo some fine tuning. At first I wanted to publish a poetry collection. But I simply do not have enough poems. I can blame my ‘writing drought’ during undergrad for that one.

I will probably self-publish since publishing companies don’t seem to accept submissions in this particular genre. *shrugs* Oh, well… I’m sure the Lord will provide a way for me to finance publishing it. 🙂

The novels are coming along. I have a few scenes that I’d like to eventually post for feedback. The web comic is behind schedule. We’re still working out the kinks. Sorry about the delay.

I know that was a short entry but I’d rather ‘show’ you all what I’m talking about. I’ll try to post a few scenes in the coming weeks.

Rating system

Happy 4th of July, everyone! : )

I don’t have any posts planned for today (unless inspiration strikes later tonight). However, I have enabled the rating system for my blog posts. I would like constructive criticism and feedback on my work. I am truly dedicated to developing my skills as a writer. Therefore, I need the help of my readers. Now, I know most of you are very busy. So, I’m not going to ask for a long critique on one of my works (though if you feel led to do so, it will be greatly appreciated! ^^)

But for those who read my blog in passing or during a short break, I have put together a 5-star rating system that corresponds with the Word press rating system. It’s a bit broad but it will give me a general idea of what you all like and dislike.

Thank you all! Have a great holiday! Take care and God bless!!!

5-Star Rating System:

1 star – This was unreadable! Get an editor stat!

2 stars – This needs a face lift in the worst possible way…

3 stars – Not bad… with a little more effort you could make it a wonderful read.

4 stars – There are some minor errors here and there but otherwise it was very nice!

5 stars – It’s an exceptional work of art! More, please?

Random Musings (“Uncertainty”)

This is the last of the random musings I composed several months ago. I will continue this series occasionally but this will be the last entry for the time being.

3/19/2009

“Uncertainty”

I’ve been having up and down days since dad passed away. Some days I am completely adjusted to the fact that he is no longer here on Earth. Other days it takes all my will power not to have a break down. I know he’s with the Lord now, but I still have panic attacks. I remember telling him years ago that I completely forgiven him for everything he had done to our family. Still… I wish I could have told him one more time.

I was so happy he came to my college graduation though I wish I had been able to hug him. That was over a year and a half ago. I am truly confused. My emotions are raging out of control. I struggle to stay motivated.

Grief is terrifying. It takes everything in me to stay focused. Where things were clear they are now in disarray. And I hate every minute of it. I know I will always miss him. But I hope that one day it will be with a gentle fondness that I look back on the time our family had with him. I hope I look back on my memories with a sense of closure and peace. I plan to meet him again and so…I do not want to be consumed by my grief. I want to carry out my plans for the future as he would have wanted me to.

Though I knew this would happen one day, I had no way of completely preparing myself for it. I still felt as if the wind had been knocked out of me when my mom told me he was gone.

I want to live. My will is strong but my motivation is shaky at the moment. I feel that with time my motivation will be restored. God blessed me with an unbreakable spirit…though I am not invincible. There are days where I cannot see what is truly out there for me. But I will keep trying… I will keep searching…

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